i cannot sleeeeeeeeep.
and i need to drag my fat body to jurong ltr.
tsk,
tsk,
tsk.
bye. dont even bother reading,my life is sooooo boring

best saturday ever.
stayed in my room the first half of day,
bleeding nose,swallowed blood,yuck.toilet looked like some
murder crime scene,cool.
town alone in the evening.
i binged,i spent recklessly.
tmr surely worst.
maybe soon,i have to make another adjustment,like one's not enough.










i've got time to kill before soccer so why not!
next week is my last week of work,YAY to that!
then i can go to sentosa with johnians and get tan!whooo,
go out w polypeeple!
spend time at home
sleep
sleep
sleep!

okay,so erm lets start from last week.
last friday,marcus friends came for bbq and all and they stayed till quite late
so i extra extra also join in.
how to sleep,cold war with boyfwen eh!
Haha.
ohhhhhhhkay.
then saturday,
went out just the four of us.
me,g,bac and kong.
went all ard looking for kong's shoes,
and then to marches for dinner.
splendid!

sunday,i watched their match again,and attended mass.
wow,

monday was back to work,whine and whine and whine.
ohya and brad's official last day.booooooo

tuesday,i went to work alone.
WAH, the old man i mentioned before, crazy one,ask me to be his daughter,
if i tell brad he surely laugh.
so persistent somemore,early in the morning,bledy hell,i wide awake alr.
siaosiaosiao.
today he called me wtffffffffffffffffff!
i din know it was him until i answered.
this is highlight of the week.
oh and then i swam with g and had doughnuts,yum.

wednesday,i took off,YESSA finally.
went to barrage with my poly mates!
played card games,eat chips,
i had funnnn!
then had to rush home for dinner with guests.
i reached home,i got surprised,we got new sofa!
wah,so out of the blue,
stuffed myself during dinner.
i had a great night.
and my fam's gonna go through some adjustments
and we are all scared,like nvr been through hardship before likethat.
and im quite worried for my dad.
ohwell, i pray and hope for the best.


thursday,bore.

friday,bore too. haha,

peeple peeple.
johnians,parables,mission pls check your mail!
:)



bye! Hello everyone!
its been long.
i've been busy working my arse off,rarrr
i want to do a longgggggg update,
soon.

i hate it when ....
argh,make me frown waste your own fucking time.
im gonna be a cold chicken.because i saw a cold turkey.
ohwait,im not making sense. thursday is dead boring
i just got home after being yelled at,
ying liao lorzxzxzxz.
win already.

i've got nobody to talk to,
nobody to share my nightmare or random thoughts throughout the day with.
i might as well tell whoevers reading this.
thanks for reading.
my nightmare was fucking scary,i took so long to snap out of it.

there was this particular day i was suppose to work but i skipped w/o telling anyone,
went for this church service in town with dot,faith,and josh.josh has this new polaroid and we were
nuts over it. the whole st anthony community were there,idk why. then the thing started la,victor sat with us too.
then suddenly, this big group of terrorists came and disrupt the whole thing.they started to whip the host and set bombs on the stage.we knew something bad was happening,they also went around in 2s or 3s killing ppl and all.
so the 5 of us decided to run and hide,everyone was terrified la,super chaotic. we hid like somewhere near the staircase,but they found us in the end.they set the stairs on fire and even pour kerosene on us, faith,dot and i started crying,its like we really have to die already.they also set bombs around us,those ticking ones.then they threaten us and left in a hurry.
luckily i saw this open window and told them that we can escape from there,josh said that i was smart! we all managed to climb out of the window,then victor bravely jumped down first.he didnt shout to us.so we just jump down also, after we got down,the terrorists were directly infront of us, they were talking to my sch's principal mr keh and the teachers and getting ready to leave this place that was about to explode when we caught their attention.dieeeeeeee , we had the shock of our life,we were so scred that they will grab us and kill us that moment that we ran back into the building going diff directions and then i locked myself in this room with 3 other sisters i forgot who,we stayed there for damn long until someone told us it was safe to come out. wah, the feeling of being safe and free ah! shiokkk! i went looking ard finding my loved ones ah.i saw marcus then i hugged him.and then i saw my parents,even happier. we decided to take cab to eat somewhere,we din wanna walk cause we were afraid that the terrorists might spot us and harm us again.
i was finding for the 3 of them too. victor din survive cause the terrorist killed him right away after he jumped down.
there were like many ppl hugging and crying,so happy that they survive this horrible incident.
my family then took a cab smewhere to eat subway,thats when i called anthony to check if he was safe,and he answered and i was relieved,he told me that desmond was with him too. then halfway my parents din wanna eat subway,they wanted to go to my workplace to eat,they went without asking me la,so i secretly went,hiding away from my manager.my work mate saw me and he sabotaged me and my manager was freaking angry. i forgot what happen ...

and i have an old man as a friend in jurong island.
we take the same later bus together,and he's a chef in the food court.
he says he's gonna treat me one day,i shy laaaaa.
today,i let my hair down.
this customer who comes everyday said i look good in this hairstyle,
wtheckkkk,i just din tie my hair up only.

and i love the smell of ajax lavender/apple.
i enjoyed mopping the floor today for no reason at all.
i'm home alone,bored to death.
noone gives a damn.
and i gave pasta to dot and faith for dinner.
ty.

and my results this sem sucked!
i am still sour,as sour as a lemon puss.
not fair at all
they suck up onezxzxz. i dk why i love being jealous all the time,
i hate this part of me,arghhhhhhh,
stop it.

thankyou fishy for everythg,
i love you!

my manager just texted me saying that he'll appreciate it if i come bk tmr,
which i will.
i think its so scary,he hardly smiles,i scared he scolds me.why he so different from jesh ah?
looks like when ppl grow older,they tend to look more serious and ...glum.

ok,now i have to save money,save money,be damn stingy,haha, save and scrimp like typical aunties alr.

i am getting tired and i have dishes to wash,
the next time i come online would be the weekends alr,
ltr kaypo peeple!
Heh heh! i survived my first week at work
but it was almost killing me.
so today i din make my damn long journey to jurong island
instead i told them i wasnt feeling well,and slept in till 12plusplus.
i really wasnt well to be working,
i had eyes like mary poppins cause last night was very very sucky.
i cried myself to sleep,thaaaaat bad!

friday i was at chalet and i enjoyed everyone's company! thankyou guys! mwah!
saturday,dead tired,but i still went out w raymond,bacon,joel and g.
to wisma and then to central for dinner,after which we picked des and went to joel's hse to watch the match.
Sunday,attended 9.15 and watched them play at marsiling apartments.lunch with my family and then to the crazy packed IT fair in suntec with g,sean,jem, bernard and kim tan.
i had fun squeezing my way through haha,and 4/6 of us bought something.
i've got an early birthday present from g!!!!!
had changing app for dinna and then went back to jail...
i hate her.


OMGOMG,there's this 5.30pm show on channel 8 called the rainbow connection.
we used to watch the recorded ones on tape in church on the third level,how i miss the old times.
i knew how everyone loved it!


back to work tmr,half yay half arghh.

im so thankful to have them in my life!
Xoxo. ytd's fine dining dinner was at garibaldi,
a ridiculously expensive place,and i wonder which idiot
goes there. A truly unique italiano experience!
love the time spent with didi,mewmew and markers though.
goodnight,

you hate me right?

today was a boring day,i travelled one round around singapore by train,
i meant before and after work laaaaaa.
just to do a favour for someone im not close, wow. i am so nice.
fullstop.and i walk in the freaking rain and got blister on my little toe.
brad also wanna pangseh me soon alr,i will be very lonely in la vela ehhhhh!
no one to eat caeser salad with,or asam asam.

i am like broke, i dun like the feeling of being poor.
i dunknow la,today i just feel like complaining non stop.
non stop hits.

tmr i still have to wake up at 7? sheeshhhhh,i am an early bird wannabe.
if only i live in the island la. at the cafe,with the dead rat and dead sparrow.
i can also fold napkins 24/7.

ytd,i watched slumdog,played pool in occ with my abangs and played soccer with great spirits!
weeeha!


my workplace looks just like the setting of hsm2,
just that im missing my troy.
Ha.
today was slackish at the end.
i hope tmr will be as slack.
im out at 8 while you guys had blankets over your dreams and nasty saliva.
lucky you!
have to wash the dishes now!
groans, byeeeeee. Friday was my First day at work!
Woohooooooo!
okay,suppose to meet brad at 8am,he came at 8.45
fine nvm,chill chill abit,then on our way,he ask me if i brought my ic along
Nooooo,i freaking did not and so we had to travel back to wdlds,to go home to take.
holy macaroni,i wanted to mark it as a bad day alr, but then things kinda work out laaaaaaaaa.
we went to sembawang,cause the manager gonna send us to jurong island himself,
how niceeeee,i couldnt take it in the car,cause it was so quiet and i almost fell asleep.
blahblahblah,brad gave me the maroon coloured long sleeved uniform,and i looked pretty good in it!
Hawhaw!
i was asked to do the ice,and then after that,our first customer came, and stupid brad ask me to go
like what the heck,i nvr work before i dunknow how to take orders omg omg omg!
so scary!i was nervous manzxz,it was fun i guess!
its like even better than playing pretend games,cause its real!
i had to clear the tables and serve and all that,
i dun rmb much anymore,just that, lunch was at 2plus 3 and i was almost dying of hunger.
After which they made me sweep and mop the floor.
it was hard work! i am so lazyyyyy,i hate doing that,its like being a maid.
Hate that part,
i learnt quite a lot already considering its my first day,so yay me!
and thanks brad and jeshaiah!
the journey is a killer man!
i hope i can survive next week!
and i want to try their food cause it looks soooooooooo yummy!
all i could do was stare at it,bummer.

Anthony bought me a red belt! :) :) :)

Soccer at night,i made a lame joke,and gabriel said
"Jos! you dye your hair,you dye your brain also ah!?"
Hahahaha,that was funny!
heehee

and then i came home and sandra surprised me with an audition!
and i was sooooo excited!
i printed the script immediately,haha.

Twooooooo-day,
We went to have lunch at cafe cartel& i was freaking full! & then we finally caught my Bloody Valentine in 3d!
its freaking scary and bloody but nice!
i kept covering my eyes with my sweater,i scared i'll have nightmare ltr eh!
Then to marina square,to see see the media fair thingy and the audition.
We didnt go in the end cause it was held on stage where everyone could see you and i had no balls to do it,even though
i wished they would pick me to play that part! pity pity,told sand about it,and we met the rest in orchard
,din really do anything so ya.went home lorzx then.
atl was trying soooooo hard,i am touched cause he always goes the extra mile unlike your beefys, hahaha.
and we tried acting out the script too! he was soonlee i was yiling,hahah,funny!
tmr is after church stay home movie marathon day! YAY!

oh and afew days ago,errrr,Wednesday,had to go back to sch for photography rarr.
then met g after that to have fish and co and got more tees!
Thursday,went back to sch again,geez, played left4dead for the first time,hahaah
its like counterstrike just that we have more to kill! stupid zombies! haha,i got carried away w the game that i forgot the time.
met cathclass peeps to have dinner! i cant wait for chalet ahhhhhhhhhh!
this is me minah+ahlian w eyeliner campur campur!

woohoo! my hair is back to blakc,well,sort of! this is me now!!!!! woohoo!


i love my fringe in this one,damn coolio!

this was me this afternoon with i wonder whose ring is this!


hello no one,
the whole noon i was an angsty teenage girl!
and i needed someone to be there like literally.
and dxb and kong came and help retrieve my sandals.
and yadayayda.
Hello again, i am black widow!
i am back!
heh heh heh! crazy laughter,extremely excitd at getting back my hair colour!
tho now its like warm brown,the brown is freaking obvious!
but when you see me,pls lie and say wow it looks awesome and black just like my natural colour.
you will make me happy! heehee!
and and class chalet coming up,i cant wait yknow,i cant wait!
i could scream!
and and,one more good news,i got a job!!!!!
aint it great?! i'll be working with brad now in jurong island ulu ulu place!

i need to go back tmr,sucky la! photography. :/

pls cheer up! arghhhhhhhh, *H* pinches cheek!


Goodbye blonde brown hair,i had great memories with you
but now,its time to move on! i loved you! though you were giving me a hard time.
you were rough and weird looking, you make me unrecognizable by my mummy's friends.
im glad our days are over, i'll miss you!
(:
hello to the selfish world.
this world is filled with fishmongers.
i cannot stand it anymore.
i hate selfish people,like you,
my lungs just wanna burst and scream at you.
why can people be so selfish and self centered?
i just cant fathom why.
they need an attitude check and adjustment like srsly.
my weekend and monday was bleah,awful ridiculous,
i am too self conscious,as what my two close boys did say.
i should change this part of me.
i shouldnt care what other people think.
i should make my own decisions.
i miss my friends.i miss being myself,
most importantly i miss the boy who injured his poor knee today.
i've got like many random thoughts.

im disappointed that bacon couldnt make it.
i still cant get over it,

i dunknow if i shd celebrate me being 18,
like smtimes i think,its not necessary.

i would wanna lose weight starting from tmr.

i would wanna go out with the johnians,the parables,sugar pie honey bunch.
i would wanna be me when i was 14/15 years old.
i dun want to be invisible.
i wanna be the damn grasshopper in everybody's house.

this is an ego post dont bother reading.
just now i felt so angry at myself,
i am so dumb,like literally,i cant talk no shit ah.
i'm not even helping la,

im in pain,ouch.

i drank today,
thats me,i'm cool like that,
an alcoholic
reds at eltoro.
i wonder if i would be aunty liyin when i grow up.

Bullshit,cowshot,peacock shit.
i dk whats up with me today.
its either the stupid shitty grades sunk into me or i caught the contagious bring-myself-down flu.
Haizxzxzxzx.